What stars have planned for me...

Two days ago I experienced the weirdest thing ever.

Since I had doubts about my future plans and all this school stuff, I decided to go to an astrologer. 

At first I thought he was one of those voodoo people who looks into crystal ball and all. But boy was I wrong ;D  He is actually a star translator. I had to tell him the exact date and TIME when I was born. From all that he made a map. He explained that when I was born at 1:30 am, all the planets were in one exact spot in the universe. and he got that picture. 

My doubts about that man disappeared in two seconds, when he started talking about my personality. His first words were: "You're a total daydreamer." And then my mind just stopped working and I listened to every word he said.  He was absolute right about everything. It was like he had a book written about me, and he knew everything from what I do to who I am. 

The best part was that he didn't say anything bad. Only good things. He said that I'm an optimist,which is good, cause there aren't that many in the world, but it's also bad, because I'm happy with everything the way things are. So I don't try to reach higher goals. [but since I know that now, that's about to change :) ]

He said that I'm a very lucky person because no matter what I choose to do, I'll be successful at everything. But the main direction for my career is business and management. I don't stress about little things in everyday life but when it comes to big stuff, I am good at setting things in right places.

And that was actually what I wanted to hear. I've been thinking about business and management for a long time, but other people around me somehow pulled my thoughts away from that direction. 

He also said, that I attract people. That they like talking to me and that my smile calms them down. And he said that there is a big possibility that my first kids will be twins, lol ;D can't wait for that ;D

So basically I am amazing and I'll have a great life :D 

The visit cost me 30$ but it was the best spent money ever! I feel so happy now. I have no stress, no doubts about anything and I am smiling non-stop every single day.

Whether it all comes true or not, I know that I'm going to be ok :)

-B- 

some ugly thoughts and tough decisions

Finally it's Spring time here! Usually when my dad opens the curtain in my room in the mornings, my reaction is NOOOOO!!! ;D but now I wait for him to come and do it, cause I just love the sun that shines on my face every morning. In days like this I know it's gonna be a good day. It's funny how a simple sunshine can brighten not only the day, but people mood as well.

I know I've been lazy and not posting for a long long time, but time is flying and there's so much to do. We have all these events at school since It's my Senior year, and I have managed to make some decisions.

I wanted to study abroad. I've been talking about that for one or two years. But I kinda freaked out and didn't get any papers done or any research. So I had to come up with something. And I did. Kinda. For all this time I told everyone I don't like Latvia, I want to live somewhere else etc. but recently I realized, I have been lying to everyone, including myself. I wanted to study abroad, so I could rub it into somebodies face. But thankfully I realized, how pathetic and ugly that is. And that I'm better than that. Although I feel stupid for even thinking like that. I can achieve any goal I set for myself. As long as I'm doing something for myself and not for others - I'll be ok =] plus, I have too many values here and I love this country. It'll always be my home. And I'm having fun here.

So now I just have to make a choice between two options.

Option number one: I could study as a translator. I'm good with languages, it's one of the best universities in Latvia and there are 40 places for scholarships. And I'm almost 100% sure I would get in. The school itself is perfect,prestige, beautiful and nice. [however, it may be too perfect for me, cause I didn't feel that comfortable there].

Option number two: I could study psychology. I love helping people, I'm a good listener and even now my friends and classmates are coming to me for advice. I should get a planner, cause many people want to talk to me about their problems. And I've loved psychology since elementary school.

My problem is, that I would actually really like to study psychology and become a psychotherapist, but this profession isn't that popular in Latvia. People here don't like to open up to therapists and not that many go to them. So I'm kinda afraid I won't have a job later...

But as a translator, I know I would always find a job. 

So now I don't know what to do. I guess I just want someone to tell me that no matter what I choose, I'll do great.

Only two months till exams, and I have to make a decision soon. Thankfully I have the next week off, cause of Spring holidays. I'll have some time to clear my head and gather my thoughts. 

I promise to catch up with all your blogs :) I miss your stories and I hope everyone is having a good time :)

Take care for now :)

-B-