Sunday, January 29, 2012

my good mood has been with me for past 4 months! I sure hope it's not going anywhere!

I know before Christmas I was bragging about the warm weather and no snow... but now I have to say COLD WEATHER GO HOME! it's -17°C and it's getting colder. The roads are slippery, my car is frozen every morning, and while I'm getting it warm - I freeze.  

Aside from that, some interesting stuff has happened... 

I went to my first hockey game yesterday. I'm a huge fan of hockey - I've even skipped school and work just to see games. But somehow I've always worried about money and other stuff and I never went to see the games in person. I've always watched them on TV. But  yesterday me, my dad and his colleagues went to see the game. The atmosphere, feeling and everything was so great! People were awesome, we had awesome seats and the whole night was amazing and fun. I'm not saving money anymore. I'm gonna go again and again. I was filled with so much great emotions, I'm excited today as well. ;D I just hope this excitement stays til school ;D


There's an aerobics day on Thursday in my school. Every class has to prepare a dance performance for the competition and girls get grades for gym class from this event. I don't attend gym class, due to health issues, so I don't have to take place in this event, BUT! my classmates can't work together. They fight, someone always gets offended and they simply can't work things out if someone takes the leader role. SO, they elected me as the one who orders around and tell everyone what is ok and what's not. They said I fit for this role cause I'm the only one they don't want to kill ;D So even if I don't have to, I'm taking bigger part in this than some of the girls who need this grade. But, it's not like I mind being the boss, LOL! ;DD I just hope everything works out and we'll get some fun from this.

Aside from some stress, I got 2 amazing e-mails.

One of them is still a secret, so I can't tell you yet. But don't worry, when time comes - I'll let you all know what's up.
The other actually made my day. I got an e-mail from a man named James. He has written a book and asked me to read it and write a review. I'm super excited about this one. So James, if you're reading this - thanks! And I will do it soon! 



So that's what I've been doing all this time. Having fun and enjoying life :)
But that's all for now, cause I have 5 tests this week. Gotta study ;D




Here's something just for fun - I washed my dog, and I don't know why, but he gets all curly when he's wet ;DD [I know he doesn't look that happy, but he likes to have a bath.I think ;D] 




Have a wonderful week, everybody :)

-B-







 

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Be master of mind rather than mastered by mind

I've hated my mind for the last few weeks. WHY? you might ask. Simply because it is playing the most annoying games ever...

Since I'm in the middle of my Senior year, I have to make many decisions about my future. And I just can't do it. I'm changing my mind all the time and I have no idea about what I'm gonna do after I graduate. Besides whenever I figure something, I talk myself out of it.

I have to take 4 obligate exams. 3 of them are known - Math, Latvian, English. For 4th I chose Russian. I have no idea why, but I did. Not that I'm not good at it, I am, but I don't think I'm that good to take an exam in it. But I guess I'll have to study hard ;D 

The biggest issue I'm having is not knowing what to do after high school. One day I totally concentrated on it and I spent hours searching for colleges all over the world. But whenever I found something interesting, I had no problem figuring out why it wasn't right for me.

For example, 

Since I'm good with languages, working with people and I like travelling, I found a college in the UK where I could study Travel and Tourism Management. For me, this sounds interesting. But as I was looking through it, I started thinking sooo many stupid thoughts... - What if I'm not good at it? What if I end up working for some small hotel where only few people go? What if I don't like it ?

So as interesting as this sounds, I convinced myself that it is not for me. So I kept looking. Then I found something else - Business, Travel and Tourism, Event management... I found so many interesting stuff... But my mind totally messed everything up. Each time I wondered - Is that what I really want?

But that's not all... As I was thinking about all this, some completely different stuff came in my mind. I started thinking wider.  I really want to study abroad, but that means I'll have to move away from my friends, family, my comfort and safety. So what if I move far away, go to college and end up all alone? What if I don't make any friends, what if people don't like me? What if I completely fail with my studies?  

And when my head was filled with all these stupid questions, I simply turned off the computer and started crying. I don't cry usually over something like this, but it really got me that day... Besides, the fact that most of my classmates already know what they are going to do after high school, makes me feel like a total loser. Cause I will take a gap year to figure out what is it that I really want...


Thankfully I have my happy jar. Thanks to that I can put a smile on every day before I go to school...

Am I the only one who's mind is messing with everything, or are there others? Cause I need help! :(

-B- 

Friday, January 6, 2012

Happy ending and a fresh start :)

Well, new year has begun, and as always, I've left the last one behind me and I'm starting a whole new fresh year with new ideas, new goals and clear mind.

I promised myself something in the New years eve. Even though I finished last year feeling happy, there were some dramas around me and even though they were about my friends and their problems, somehow I got myself into these dramas... I have no idea how but I was involved. 

So I promised myself - NO MORE DRAMAS THIS YEAR. no more bad attitude, no more silly fights with friends, no more of the bad stuff. I don't need it. I want to make this year super exciting and awesome. I wanna have fun, relax, enjoy my last 6 months that I've left of school and simply live my life with no regrets.

I'm also figuring this whole college stuff out...step by step...
Every day I'm getting closers to all my answers and I almost have no problems in my life. For now, haha ;D School starts on Monday, so I have some time left to enjoy, lol ;D

Oh, btw, I finished 2011 on a fun note, and I will start 2012 the same! ;D Me and my classmates totally pranked our teacher before Christmas. We wrapped up her whole classroom with wrapping-paper and newspapers. She could not get to any of her stuff because all the shelves and drawers were wrapped in too. Since it's chemistry class,there are sinks in the tables, we wrapped over those, and all the soaps,pencils,pens-everything she had on her table got wrapped ;D I think it looked cool ;D And I'm so glad she laughed and loved it, cause we worked 6 hours on it! ;D So since this prank worked out, I already have a new one in my mind ;D I'll let you all know how it works out. :)

Meanwhile, I still have few days left with my sister until she goes back to Germany, Winter holidays are almost over and I have so many great ideas and I feel great. And because I started this year feeling so happy, I sure hope I'll spend it just as happy as I am now :)

Take care everybody :)

-B-


This is how it all looked ;D
 


P.S. I recently saw something incredibly awesome on TV - it was an 80's concert. ALL NIGHT LONG [for like...5 or 6 hours] I was listening to 80's music [for those who don't know me - I LOVE 80's music] so I felt like I was in Heaven. So now you will be hearing that kind of music for a while on my blog ;D cause I still haven't got tired of it. And I don't think I ever will. So for those who also like it - enjoy, and for those who don't - suffer through it ;D