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University is going to suck!

 -That's what I said a month ago, and yet, I partly stick to that sentence. Don't get me wrong, it's not all bad. Some lectures are really interesting and even fun. Although I see nothing fun in philosophy other than the fact that the professor calls all the women "madams" and most of the lecture he's talking with his eyes closed. 

The part that I don't like is the people. Some stuck up snobs who has nothing but their parents money to keep them in school. I've said several times that I really dislike arrogant people. And I have several of them in my course. And the thought of having group assignments is terrifying. I can't work with people like that. And the worst part is that they talk when nobody asks, but they are quiet when it's necessary to speak their mind! 

but, despite that, I'm here with my sister and I'm having fun most of the time :) 
I'm learning German. And I feel like in kindergarten, learning numbers and letters ;D but I'm progressing fast! :) 

Studying at University takes hard work, and I think my laptop will explode eventually :D And since I'm a total wimp, I miss home and my dog and cat and mommy and daddy :D

Basically, the first week is over and I hope the rest of them fly like the wind. I want this year to be over as soon as possible.

And I realized two things - University is not for me...Tourism, however, totally is :)

Take care,

-B-  

Life happens while you're making other plans :)

Finally I've got everything under control and I'm ready for a new start. I won't say that I have time to relax, cause I've had it too much lately and I don't wanna sound lazy ;D which I am. But that's not the case.

I got my exam results last week. If anyone's curious:

English - B [I am 1% away from A :( ]

Latvian - B

Math - B

Russian - C [with this I'm so happy, cause I thought it was going to be Z ;D ]

And with the results, came the big question - What to do next? I've said it a couple of times that I've figured out my plans for the future, but actually I changed them like 100 times or even more. And I made the decision about what to study, the day before applying for University. As crazy as this sounds, I'm actually happy about my choise. I applied for  Tourism Management. I was really nervous about it until last night, when I got an email, which said that I'm ACCEPTED! and not only that, because of my good exam results, I got into a budget group, which means I don't have to pay for the studies! Now I am super happy and excited. Because this saves me a lot of money, which I don't have ;D

Before all this, I was feeling really down and stressed. That was because of many reasons. One of them was because I didn't know what to study. Another reason was that all my closest friends are leaving. Linda [with her amazing artist talent] is heading to Canada, another good friend already is in London, and my closest friend is flying to Boston in September.

All this made me sad and happy at the same time. I'm super happy about all of them. But I'm sad, cause they are my closest friends. And without them here I'm alone. I just really hope our friendships are strong enough to not disappear. :) 

Anyway, I was worried about being alone. If you know me, you know that I'm afraid of new beginnings. But, now I'm feeling more happy and I still have friends and family who support me. And I know now that everything's going to be just fine :) 

All I have to do now is sign a contract with the University, find an apartment and head towards the future :)

-B- 

Graduation is not the end; it's the beginning

Today is the day of my graduation. Even if I'm not going to the ceremony [please don't ask why] I feel blessed and loved from people around me. It hasn't hit me yet, that I've graduated high school. I think I'll completely realize it only in September, when I'll be going to university. Btw - I totally changed my plans for my future, but I'll wrote that in some other post. :) Today I'm not writing anything too long. I just wanted to let everyone know, that I am happy for all the friends and family I have :) I love you all so much and you are amazing and I'm happy I have you all in my life :) 

Peace, and much love :)

-B-

today is a perfect day for a perfect day :)

So, my last post was super sad and stuff, BUT! life has been absolutely good after that. My relationship with my mom is perfect  and we are all living happy ever after ;D

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I recently started to be scared of the future. All I've left is this free summer and than in September it's school again. Plus half of July I'll have to deal with all the papers and everything. Sometimes I truly wish I could escape this part where I have to study and just teleport myself to the future where I already have a good job and I can take care of myself. But, then I think about all the cool stuff I can do while I'm a student. I will still have free time to relax and my only worry will be school. And nothing else. So I decided not to think about future for a while. And just live for the moment. And I discovered that Life is awesome :) 

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laugh of the day:

Today is my parents wedding anniversary, so KISSES MOM AND DAD :)

so I made a cake for them. and all I can say is LOL! ;D

you cannot give me all kinds of cute stuff. let me explain - I recently went to a grocery store. I shouldn't have done that ;D cause there was a sale on cake supplies. All kinds of glazes,  frosting markers, sprinkles... it was all there! and of course I took everything ;D 

So when I was making a cake today, of course, I used everything! ;D I was like a little kid with markers and pencils. I just went nuts. I put on chocolate glaze, covered it with thousands of rainbow sprinkles and to top that, I totally messed with frosting markers ;D 

And that is how world's most ugliest cake was made ;D

-but, I figured, since they're my parents, they'll have to like it no matter what ;D

 [I can't stop laughing about it ;D ]

Have an awesome day everybody :)

-B- 

I hate days like this...

I made my mom cry today.

And may I say - it was the worst feeling in the whole wide world. But the thing that worries me the most, is that I don't have the courage to even apologize to her. Whenever I've done something, I just leave it... Sooner or later we start talking again and everything goes back to normal. But when I really think of this, I'm ashamed that our relationships are like this. 

I would love to go to her, hug her and say MOM, I'M SO SORRY. But I never do it. Why? Because I'm afraid she might reject me. I know this sounds stupid, cause , come on, she's my mom. How could she, right? But she has that kind of character, which I cannot explain. I truly don't know how she would react. Of course she's hugged me before when I feel down. But that's not the same as when we fight.

Another thing - I have never said I LOVE YOU to my mom. To be honest - I have never said it to anyone. And I don't think anyone has ever said that to me either. On this years mothers day I got my mom the biggest bouquet of tulips and I even made a speech, which included those words. But when I got to my mom, all I said was CONGRATS! and gave her the flowers and a kiss.

Days like this just make me feel like I'm the worst person in the world.And I couldn't find the courage to change something...

That was until 5 minutes ago! Since I was feeling totally bad for everything that happened today, I just went to a store, bought the most beautiful flower I could find, came home, gave it to my mom and said MOM, I'M SO SORRY FOR EVERYTHING.and hugged her. Than she cried and I cried and than I laughed cause I cry really ugly ;D

Anyway, today is the day when I overcame my fears and I am so glad I did, cause there is nothing better than pure love :)

take care,

-B-  

Life is good, but I'm better ;D

This time I have a completely good excuse for not being here - my computer is broken. So today my friend has to put up with me, cause I'm like an addict going through every website ;D I have missed so many awesome stories and I can't wait to get my computer back to read them all. But, I also don't want him back for several reasons. As much as I've missed your posts, I've never been this relaxed.  I have time for myself, my family, friends and relaxing.


A couple of awesome things have happened to me these last weeks. 


First, on May 13 was Mother's Day in Latvia. So a little belated Happy mother's day to all you-wonderful amazing moms out there :) 


Another awesome thing - I turned 19 on May 12. And may I say- this was THE BEST birthday ever! And all thanks to my wonderful friends and family.


My friend bought bus tickets to Tallinn [Estonia] and we both celebrated my birthday there.
Thanks to couch-surfing, I had so many amazing experiences. 
If someone doesn't know what couch-surfing is - it's a website where people from all over the world offer their homes for travellers to stay at. And we got an amazing host. She showed us the town, took us sightseeing and took us out at night so I could have some birthday shots ;D


The town was beautiful and we were walking for 5 hours and still didn't manage to see everything. Then at night, it was a completely different view. There were millions of people and clubs, pubs and parties around every corner. We went to few clubs and the people there were amazing and so nice! Everyone who found out I had a birthday, immediately hugged me and wished me a happy birthday. The shots were good, the music was amazing and the people were simply awesome. 


When I got back home, I had my second surprise - my friends got me the best presents ever ;D 


a little back story:
-I never pay any attention to how much fuel I have left in my car. So there have been few situations when my car simply stops cause it's out of fuel. 


For that to never happen again, one friend got me can of fuel for emergencies ;D lol. My friends know me so well :D 


So I had the best birthday, I got the best presents and I'm in such good mood I can't even explain it. 
And now when my computer is broken, I will have some time to study for my exams. The English exam is on  Tuesday, so wish me luck :)


I have some other stories but I want to catch up with your blogs first :) I don't know how [cause my computer will be broken for a while], but I will manage to do it. :) 

Meanwhile, enjoy yourselves :)

you are all amazing :)

-B-   

Here are some pictures from my birthday :)

Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.

AGAIN! I haven't been here for a really long time! but this time I have no excuses ;D I've just been lazy. So sorry for that. 

I'm not gonna write some story or something, just a few random things that have happened in my life this last month and I still have some debts left.

So here I go:

*First, I owe someone a book review. It's not going to be long, cause I think people are more attracted to short reviews. Otherwise they can simply read the book.

 

[The picture was taken from Haritha's blog]

"The New Death and others". Written by James Hutchings

 "44 short stories, 19 poems, no sparkly vampires."

"In the beginning of the world the gods considered all those things which did not have their own gods, to decide who would have responsibility and rulership.
"I will rule all flowers that are sky-blue in colour," said the Sky-Father.And so it went.
At last all had been divided, save for one thing.
"Who," asked the Sky-Father, "shall have dominion over the poor?"

There was a long pause. The gods shuffled their feet and avoided one another's gaze. At last a voice broke the silence.
"I will," said Death." 

I, personally, loved this one the most. 

Although the stories are really short, they get right to the point. Dark fantasy, weird, strange stories but with amazing everyday life irony. I don't usually read this kind of books. I'm not into fiction at all, even more DARK fiction. But that only made me more curious to read it. And I actually really liked this book. It didn't take much time to read it. [It took me this long to post a review cause I'm lazy-remember? ;D] The stories made me think about values of life, about myself, and it completely made me change my mind about many things.

So thank you James, for giving me this opportunity to read your book, write a review and actually find out something new about myself :)

*Now onto the next thing. A long time ago I received an email from Christine Chu. She told me about her idea to create a diet/fitness website/app. "For me, I think the problem with being healthy is motivation. It's an abstract, overwhelming goal. I think the best way to counter this is to have concrete, winnable games and small victories." said Christen. So the website is ready, and she asked me to put it on my blog. So here it is www.slimkicker.com

If any of you is interested, please take a look :) I think it's pretty interesting and her idea is amazing :)

*Now something about myself.

-Since the weather is finally AMAZING! I'm relaxing and enjoying every second I've left before the exams, who, btw, start on May 22.

So for now, I'm barbecuing, road-tripping [is that even a word?] and having fun. 

-I also missed my one year anniversary at blogger. Which was on April 5th. Since I didn't write a post about it ;D I'm just gonna say it now - I am beyond happy to be here. The last year has been a real journey, I've met some amazing people here and I hope we will stay friends for a long long time. And I really hope I get to meet you all one day :) Thank you for being so amazing :)

-I went to the school that I've chosen to study at. And I found out some interesting things and I'm now completely sure about what I'm gonna do and study. And this feeling is wonderful.

-And I've also started something completely new. I'm learning Norwegian. It is completely different from all the other languages I know and I love it :) If you're going to ask me WHY ARE YOU LEARNING IT? I can't answer you. I don't have a strict goal for it. I just wanted to do it, and I really like it :)

Well...that's about it. I've been quite busy, quite lazy, but mostly, I've been [and still am] Happy :) 

Have a wonderful day everybody :)

-B-