When I get ready to talk to people, I spend two thirds of the time thinking what they want to hear and one third thinking about what I want to say.

Today I thought about thoughts that make me think in sleepless nights :D:D (this sentence sounds so cool, LOL)

People are so different all around me. Some are nice, some not that nice, some are funny, some are sad...all kinds of people I meet everyday. But if there's one thing everyone has in-common its  that we all want others to like us.  I'm not gonna lie - I want it too. I like when others like me. It's a good feeling. But the bad side of this all is that sometimes we forget that to get something, you have to give.

People will always treat you the same way you treat them. That's just how it is. We all know it, but not all of us remember it. Til this day, I used to whine all the time about how I don't have any real friends, how my life is pathetic, how nobody likes me... and people around me do it too. And it's annoying. Even when I do it. Cause it sounds so weak. We CAN'T just expect others to come to us and say OH, YOU ARE SO NICE, SO COOL... we have to earn others respect, niceness and likeliness. And if others don't like you, don't judge them or say that they don't understand you or that they're not nice. Instead try to think WHY others don't like you and have you done anything for them to like you.

Until this day I was just like that. But no more. So today is my big day of changes. And I like the sound of that.

So, take care everyone, and yaay! for happy cool people, haha :D

-B- 

If you like Pina Coladas and getting caught in the rain...

These were such good holidays!!!

I didn't eat eggs though, but I got my chocolate bunny :D (I love those)

I totally relaxed! Celebrated Easter, met some good friends and laughed so much!!

Yesterday I went to city called Kuldīga with my family. There is the widest waterfall in Europe! and during this time of spring the crazy fishes jump up to the waterfall. I don't know why they do that, but it looks cool. 

Plus, it was really nice to spend some time outdoors with my family...just going for a walk, all together.

At the end this was a really great weekend. Loved it and enjoyed it.

So how did you spent your holidays? :)

-B- 

Here is a picture of those crazy fishes :D

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows!

yes yes yeeess!!!!! Finally! It's Easter holidayysss! I'm so excited to relax and enjoy the wonderful weather and freedom for 4 days! I will have time to relax from everything. 

These holidays I plan on spending with my family and few friends I don't see everyday at my grandmas house. It's the best place to relax. The fresh air, fields, silence all around...there's a place for everyone,especially for partying, haha.

The tradition says I have to eat eggs with salt on Easter day so I don't lie :D too bad I don't like eggs. BUT that doesn't mean I'll be lying :D plus I'll still paint the eggs and do other traditions. 

Today feels like the best day for a barbecue!  The sun, the warmth, the smell of first flowers...it just screams Party! :D plus it's a nice way of starting the holiday.

P.S.how about you? How do you plan on spending you holidays? What do you usually do on Easter? You have some special traditions or something? 

Happy Easter everybody!

Have a wonderful weekend.

-B- 

do-nothing day.

No school for me today. I took a day off. :D (I had a reason, I promise :D )

This week has started really good. I still have no inspiration or will to do something...I don't want to do any homework...it's not fun in school anymore... I just want to relax and summer to begin. But today i feel really good. Probably I'm just in a good mood because of the sun that shines right through my window :)

Today I wanna do absolutely nothing. So for me today is officially DO-NOTHING Tuesday :D

Although I think my neighbors hate me, haha. cause my -do-nothing- involves really loud music.

So take care everybody and enjoy this absolutely perfect day. :) 

-B-  

Sometimes you have to be selfish to be selfless.

Today is such a beautiful day...

too bad I have to sit in my room and study...A LOT... damn you school, damn you!

besides, how can I think about learning when it's so warm and sunny outside?

Actually, I can't concentrate to anything right now. I don't even know what to write, what to say or what to do. Lately I've been feeling empty. like all my positive energy, all my strength, imagination and inspiration has been sucked out of me.

I don't know if I can handle everything that's going on. Right now I feel like giving up. Cause I'm tired of trying. Every time I try to do the right thing - it just backfires at me. I try too much to make others happy. 

For me - others always come first, and only then it's me. But it's been like that for so long, it's not working for me anymore, cause I'm not happy.

So maybe it's time for me to become a bit more selfish...

Not like...bitch selfish... I just have to think about myself and learn to say NO from time to time, because I feel like most of the time people are using my niceness. And I'm not ok with that anymore.

Hopefully, I'll achieve and get my strength,positiveness and inspiration back.  

P.S. recently saw "Gone with the wind" and just love that movie.

''I can't think about that right now. If I do I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow. After all - tomorrow is a new day.'' /Scarlett O'Hara/

Have a nice day, everybody :)

-B-

Joy is not in things - it is in us!

These last couple of days have been enlightening.

  First of all, I survived my very first day of driving school. Despite the fact, that I don't like people I'm learning with, I'm actually excited to go there again today. There are 14 boys and 2 girls in my group. And all the boys looked like - what the hell are these girls doing here...it's not like they know how to drive or something...haha.

But, who cares what they think, right?

 The other thing I discovered - turns out, If you can stand up for yourself and fight for your  opinion, you are arrogant. I'm sorry for all who think that, but I don't agree. I think there's a big difference between arrogance and confidence.

 The third thing I realized - if you help nicely others with something you understand and they don't - they will be thankful, but if you help them, thinking like-omg, it's so easy, how can you not know that, are you stupid or something? yeah...they won't appreciate your help no matter how much you've helped.

But my biggest discover of the today was that it doesn't take much, to make me happy. For today it was only the sun and one sentence from my friend. She said - aww Baiba, you are so nice :) and trust me people - that made my day :)

And I hope yours is as nice as mine :)

See ya later, alligators :D

-B- 

It is officially the FREAK OUT MONDAYYY!! :D

OH MY GOSH! today's the very first day of DRIVING SCHOOL. And to be honest - I'm freaking out. The thought of being surrounded by group of strangers, where I know everyone else will be better at this than me, is just suffocating me. 

I want to close the door, turn off the lights, close the curtains, get under a blanket and stay there until this day is over haha. But can't do that.

I know in life there will be A LOT OF things,situations I don't like to do or be in...but I can't just hide and give up, cause all I do - I do it for myself. Not for someone else.

So I'll just have to suck it up, be a good, brave girl and go there.

And tomorrow I'll let you know, how I suffered through it, haha.

P.S.- check out Linda's blog. I think she's really nice and talented, and you can see that in her photos.

http://photographycmm.blogspot.com/ 

Have a nice day, everybody :)

See ya later ;)

-B- 

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up...It means moving on :)

Today I wanted to post something about what to do, when two people you love are fighting over something silly, and the only thing you wanna do is just tell them to SHUT UP... but...then, I looked out of the window and saw the most beautiful view - the sky is blue, cloudless, little green sprouts are reaching out, the sun is shining, the birds are singing... and then I realized - today is too beautiful and calm for me to be angry, or disappointed. Today I learned to let it go, which is something new for me, cause I always take all emotions around on me. But not this time. This time, I will let it go, make myself lemon water with ice, go out on the balcony and enjoy the sunshine on my face. :) 

Have a nice day, everybody :)

-B- 

“If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything.”

Last night stayed up till 5 am...couldn't sleep. All kinds of thoughts were going through my head. There are a lot of things I wanna do in my life, but the main thing is to be successful. I wanna go to college, graduate, get good job that I really like and live successful life. BUT, to do that, I have to change a lot of things in my life and to be honest, I'M SO SCARED.Right now I have family, friends, home...I'm safe. but to do what I really want, I have to leave all this... and I'm scared of that. Plus I also don't know what I want to study...I mean...I would have to go away...where nobody would know me...and what if no-one would like me? Then I would be completely alone...

I wish someone would tell me - do this, do that, go there, study that and you will be successful and everything'll be OK. but no-one can tell me that...

A wise woman once said-

The key to the change...is to let go of fear.

/Rosanne Cash/

So I've got 2 QUESTIONS OF THE DAY:

1. "How can I know what is the right choice for me?"
2. "How can I let go of my fear?"

And sadly, I don't have my answers to those questions. :(

  So, can anyone Please HELP!!!???

 -B- 

whoever said happiness comes with sunshine, has never danced in the rain. ♥

Wow...this was one cold, gray, rainy day.

BUT...gray is also known as the color of intellect, knowledge, and wisdom, so we should all feel smart,haha.

Too bad it ain't working for me. Usually I go crazy when it's raining cause I love it, but today was just the laziest day ever. So today's QUESTION OF THE DAY was: "What to do, when there's nothing to do?" and then I found something - Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass... it's about learning how to dance in the rain

 ...And so I did...

  -B-

 

Newbie in the house!!!

Today is the magical day when I realized my life is soooo booringgg. I've got nothing going on...no plans for the future...NADA! lame, right? 

     So - I decided to start something new, and first in my list was writing.(and trust me - you don't wanna know the second in my list...it involves chain saw and pickles haha)

  I've always been scared of starting something new, so my QUESTION OF THE DAY was:"What's the worst thing that could happen to me?" and thankfully I found my answer - it's failure! and then I realized - it's not death, it's not the end of the world...it's just failure and as we all know - we only learn from it and if i don't try, I'll never learn... as wise man once said

"All glory comes from daring to begin." Eugene F. Ware

so CHEERS for the new beginnings!!!

Xo xo, Gossip Girl

Haha, joking

See ya later alligators!

-B-