Today is such a beautiful day...
too bad I have to sit in my room and study...A LOT... damn you school, damn you!
besides, how can I think about learning when it's so warm and sunny outside?
Actually, I can't concentrate to anything right now. I don't even know what to write, what to say or what to do. Lately I've been feeling empty. like all my positive energy, all my strength, imagination and inspiration has been sucked out of me.
I don't know if I can handle everything that's going on. Right now I feel like giving up. Cause I'm tired of trying. Every time I try to do the right thing - it just backfires at me. I try too much to make others happy.
For me - others always come first, and only then it's me. But it's been like that for so long, it's not working for me anymore, cause I'm not happy.
So maybe it's time for me to become a bit more selfish...
Not like...bitch selfish... I just have to think about myself and learn to say NO from time to time, because I feel like most of the time people are using my niceness. And I'm not ok with that anymore.
Hopefully, I'll achieve and get my strength,positiveness and inspiration back.
P.S. recently saw "Gone with the wind" and just love that movie.
''I can't think about that right now. If I do I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow. After all - tomorrow is a new day.'' /Scarlett O'Hara/
Have a nice day, everybody :)